this is real, this is me.

Now as i sit on the stone-metal monument outside my institution, the shady facade of the leaves canopy mask the sunlight as the sun rays fall lightly onto my face and shine into my eyes. The weather was undoubtedly serene. I lift my cigarette and gasp more nicotine into my already-black lungs.

I witnessed to many expensive cars on the road. BMWs, Lexus, Porshes and abounding more models. Mostly driven by agely people, otherwise I dont think much young graduates have the ability to substain the payments of a luxury car.

Actually I'm jealous and angry everytime I identify such automobiles on the road. I'm jealous because I know I have the ability to compass such a establishment, but not now. Zhi Hao says I shouldnt be envious of what other people have, otherwise it would mean that I allowed other people or objects to define who I was.

That set me wondering : From my life changing incident I knew that I was an effable chameleon, a genial man that can create fast with everybody and anybody. Some portray my conciliatoriness as being fake, but if anyone knows me, they would be able to see how well i socialise.

I'm already 23. I've got no savings YET. No girlfriend YET. No stock achievement awards YET. No trading peak medals YET. No career YET. No degree YET. No masters YET. No car YET. No thousands in my bank account. No businnesses in my name YET. No first million YET. No condo YET. No BMW YET. No clients YET. No recognition for anything recognisable YET. NO NOTHING. But, of all, the keyword is, YET.

WATCH ME.

10:48 PM

Might be considering an internship in America.
Be it trading, or banking or any where in the finance sector.
Contemplation will get me no where.
So Imma call the company to check out the details.

Quoted from my bro schoolmate :
"Time is just like cleavage,
Squeeze abit got liao"

-Sergeant Kum

9:18 AM

Enough Said.

6:20 AM

Enough said, this is one major aspect of you that has changed. I said you've changed. But i never said it was good or bad. There have been good and bad. And bad as it may seem, I NEVER ONCE DESPISED YOU FOR BEING MY BRO. I'm lost now. Lost at the speed and aspect of which you changed. And how you changed.

Success is nothing without friends. Success is being flexible. Success is being powerful where powerful is the ability to influence people. I dont what to say anymore. I'd seen you grow from the guy in camp. How we been through the darkest of challenges. Now are we gonna fall out because of women? We've been through the woes no alison can understand. Aliased from your point of view, success and earning money is one thing. But even if you are the most successful man i the world, if you have no friends and family, THEN FOR WHAT?

It's only demoralising to see things from this point of view. Love is love, but we can't live on love alone. Friends is friends, but we cant live on friends alone. Money is important but it cant buy everything. I was rich once and i realised the impact on me was that it only made me cocky and more arrogant. I gained a alot of friends, but only a few true ones.

But i only have a best one.

Taiwan : Our first chiong sua.

Taiwan : RNR

BH : BQ

Joshua's Wedding : BH

Drunk : Us again.

Only one.

1:10 AM

Exams are finally over. What should be done now is not chill, i.s to study even harder from the mistakes i learnt during the prelimaries. Kinda realisd the more one studies, it's not the more he learns; It's the more he knows he doesnt know.

There can be no end to learning. Maybe studying can have a limit. But in life, everything is about learning, modelling and imitating the inner core intentions of anyone you wanna replicate. Success is easy. Success isdefined as getting what you want.

BUT, what do you want? By when? Would you know the obstacles that might lay ahead and what you will do in order to overcome them? Will you, of all, dare to even try to fail in the first place? Will you even leave your comfort zone to explore the unkwowns? Would you give anything and everything up to achieve what you want ? And lastly, even if everyone around you is telling you not to pursue your dreams cause it might seem to far fetched, would you stay strong and maintain your stand ?

Go for it. Go for anything. Go for your dreams.
Dont stop,
Never falter,
Always try to,
Dare to fail.

After exam's requisites :
Childhood Loopholes :

Drunken Horseriding :

Whatever.

Champion Smoker :

Mr Sleep God :

1:01 AM

Kids blogging about fucking bullshit.
Adolescents quarreling about irreplacable motions;
In a demeanour only delinquents do,
only to deem them more besotted.

Fucking grow up.

4:14 AM

Kids blogging about bullshit.

4:14 AM

We humans are all creatures of habit :
Have you ever wondered, the many minute errands that we do everyday, the numerous actions that we make all the time are all habitual? We go to the same cubicle every time we visit the toilet; we sit at the same spot to smoke or study, we exhibit certain exact behaviour at particulr places at anytime of the day; and alot more examples.

BUT , WHAT IF, what if we could all do the reverse instead? Ever thought of what would happen if we try new actions, execute new activities, do things all from a different perspective, replaying all the past memories in a manner no software could provide?

How about doing something that scares you everyday? Doing something out of the blue that no one could expect? Or would you just live your life like it's just on video, play , and play and keep on repeating the mundane activities of one's life.

Well, you live your life. I'll try to make mine interesting.

:)

11:44 PM

What you focus on expands. That's the universal law of attraction that whatever a man wants, and he does take enough action to work towards it, it shall come true.

There was once a person in my life, he told me this :
If I wanted something,
would I want it so much to risk losing everything?
And my answer was yes.

That was the reason to why i climbed my ex MLM comapany's ladder so fast. However, unfortunately, I left because of some internal conflict with my upline.

Taken from another perspective, why are people so downand negatively pessimistic about their lives? They think they cant. They believe they cannot do big things. They limit themselves. They curb their own beliefs. They despise themselves when no one does. Their biggest enemy will be no one else, but their own mind. Our minds and brains are strange because they work on the basis that what we want during the day, we think of it. When we sleep or dream about it, it propels our subconscious to push the invisible forces within ourselves to all towards our higher self.

You are what you think you are.

"A man is what he dreams"

- Ken S. K. B.

12:06 AM

Return on investments havent been that good for the 2 days. I made some mistakes durin trading and lost about 2k. Need to get rational and make frim decisions to my principal system of trading. Am trying to stop speaking chinese for some fucking i dunno why reason. And somehow I've been adding alot of fucking into my sentances and speech.

Went drinking.
Got high.
Puked.
Helped a friend.
Saw Jack.

:)

9:25 PM

Been monitoring the market for possible entry positions. Damn, i must admit, America's in fucking big shit. Their national Dow Jones Industrial index has been free falling for over a thousand points for the past 8 days, and it doesnt seem to be falling. I shorted 3 contracts on the Dow, let's see how it goes. :)

Asia's stock market aint going anywhere north either. Free fall for most of the mid cap stocks. A few examples are :
Keppel Corp - drop 50 cents in a week.
Capitaland - drop $1.70 in 2 weeks.
are a few that i have shorted and made a pile
And many more.

It's fucking obvious that the whole is in great freaking recession. No doubt it will be one of the greatest ( I reckon it's the greatest ) recession in mankind since industralisation. Make a guess on America's national debt till date ?

IT'S 10.84 TRILLION.
USD 1084,000,000,000
GOD BLESS US ALL.

And to end off with an anti climax,

I miss the drinking days.

Labels: dow jones, economic crisis, free fall, index, market, recession, stock

10:33 PM

Haven't been bloggin in a while. Have been muggin my balls into Economic textbooks and rummaging the reference texts on fuckin Accounting. Damn these accountants ain't human ! Fingers are sore from nudging the bloody calculator. 3 more papers to go man. Fuck the fucking school of examinations. Damn the damnationed douche bag that reinvented maths and econmics. And last but not least, fuck Indians for inventing math.

10:30 PM