this is real, this is me.

na bei. my birthday havent reach want make me drunk already. hahaha.

NEXT WEEK BDAY AT ST JAMES POWERHOUSE WITH TWO DUA PAO !
ALL SHALL DIE.

11:34 PM

I dont care what they say.
I think i motivated myself too much now, It's 1 and i can't sleep. I feel the fire within me, burning. I hunger for success but here i am stuck with some studying. Never the less i will give it my best shot. I dont believe in doing something half half. If i put my heart to doing something i make sure i make it a good one. I will make it through my degree.

I lay out my life's plan before me and i scrutinize any skeptism it may receive so as to achieve the limitless outcomes that possibly stretch it. I look at my foundation and oberved that what's above might not depict what liees beneath. I henceforth release myself into stopping doing what i want to impress other people. I will do what i can and what i want, not to impress, but so i will live my own life and not live my life for others to envy. Although it might seem i am doing very well now, it still aint up to what i feel or think it is.

The sky is limitless; or would i say space is limitless. And as i looked at it i am reminiscing the very moment this person spoke to me.
SDM : Ken, what is your targetted paycheck per month ?
Ken : (pondered for a fucking while), Three, four thousand ?
SDM : (Sternly) Then you will forever be worth that amount. ARE YOU WORTH THAT AMOUNT? THINK ABOUT IT. (And he walked away)

And i sat there motionless, and stayed on that thought for the next couple of days. I told myself there can be no value to what i am, and i will never work for a 2,3 thousand dollar job per month. The skies are limitless , you see, and Life depends not on other people, or Destiny, or Fate. It depends solely on yourself.

Look at both your palms. Do they tell you anything ? Will you allow other people to decipher your fate for you ? Or will you write your own story for other people to talk about with envy ? Will you ever step out of what you normally do just to achieve what you dont dare to do without experience at all ? Will you dare to fail, for most picture failure as a destination.

Failure is nothing but a journey. It will be bumpy. It will cut you when you fall. But why do we fall ?

SO WE CAN LEARN TO PICK OURSELVES UP.

8:35 AM

Enough said.
Anger is over.
No use feeling anything now.

I push myself too hard.
I aint dissappinted.
Anger at my stupidity.
Pissed at my rashness.

Let me make it big?
No way.
I will make it big.
NO MATTER WHAT.

7:57 AM

Black or White ?

11:11 PM

Black or White ?

7:12 AM

I guess what seems so near seems so far further away. I aint sad or dissapointed or discouraged. Just angry. Anger at the method and impatient way i did things. I only had one destinatino : Success with lots of money. But i wasnt keen on how to do it. And therefore i paid a price. A price most probably non of my peers can afford.

Today i stand before you, humble, willin to learn, and will not rush anymore;
With a loss of 15k within one week.

I will still :)

11:59 PM

I WILL SETTLE FOR NOTHING BUT THE BEST
I WILL EARN MORE MONEY THAN MY PARENTS COMBINED
I WILL NEVER STOP IMPROVING MYSELF
I WILL BECOME A MILLIONAIR BY 28 OR 30
I WILL SAVE 100K BY NEXT YEAR 6TH DECEMBER

I WILL DO IT.
I WILL MAKE IT.

IMPOSSIBLE REFRAMED AS 1'M POSSIBLE.

7:19 AM

Well, i guess i wont go down for the time being.

It seems the market is doing rather bad. ( SO I WIN MORE MONEY ). Lost a shitload of money for the past 2 days of trading. It aint ma my money that i lost. At least it's the money that the market gave me.

Thanks to all that gave me encouragement through the tags, messages and other forms. I was not down at all. I was not sad at all. I was just demoralised cause the future that i deemed so near suddenly felt so far far away again. Winning the money means nothing for me now, except maybe spending a couple of hundred dollars downing liqour like no tomorrow. I was just dissatisfied with the fact that i could not achieve me almost achievable goal of 100k. All within one year. With a 5 digit loss it did set me back for a while, ( AND I EMPHASIZE A WHILE ). Not 1 week, not 1 day, but just a couple of hours.

Those that know me know i wont go down easily. Maybe i dont go down.
Maybe. You could say I'm proud. But i guess i have my certain level of pride from what i do and what i gain. Talk to me about anything. I will be most willing to learn from you if I dont know what the fuck you're talking about.

Many thanks to :
SHULING,
JACK,
WEI XIANG,
ZHI HAO,
KERLYN

that had so much confidence in me that i could earn back whatever i lost again.

What i love :
Depict and Decipher:

12:36 AM

SPEECHLESS,

When i saw the numbers flashing across the screen. It was a huge number. It wasnt positive. It wasnt profit. It was a loss, a 4 digit loss. Combining just 2 days of trading, last night and today morning , i totalled losses of 10k. TEN FUCKING THOUSAND. Feel so disappointed with myself. Thought i surpassed everyone. The pride i was having in the past few days was gone. I need to go back and start from zero again.

I push myself too hard. But i wont go down.
No picturs depict how i feel today.

3:21 AM

wa piang. dulan. it's 230 am in the morning now.
i cant sleep.
i lost all that i earned today when i played the dow jones.
i buy up, it went down, i buy down, it went up.
maybe i shd just stick to stocks,
no more indexes man.
fuck.

losses of 3.5k USD.
NABEI.

10:02 AM

CONGRATS ONCE MORE TO ALL THOSE THAT ENTRUSTED ME WITH THEIR MONEY.

BEVAN WON 15 % of his capital TODAY.
JOSHUA WON 15 % of his capital TODAY.
JOSEPH WON 10 % of his capital TODAY.
DONG HONG WON 10 % of his capital TODAY.

AND LOOK AT THE AMOUNT I EARNED WHEN I WAS IN SCHOOL TODAY.

I'll be waiting for the day i touch a 5 digit income PER DAY.

2:15 AM

CONGRATS.

Thanks to all that trusted me with their money to play stock for them. You've all won money from the stock market. I guess they too wanted something bigger in life. Not entirely on the monetary side, but at least they dare to step out of comfort zone to achieve what they want. They DARED to despite the odds of losing every single cent of their savings in the stock market. This is what each and everyone of them made, over a brief period of time.
Thanks for trusting me with your money.

Joshua : 95 % profit in 4 days.
Bevan : 70 % profit in 3 days.
Joseph : 90 % profit in 2 weeks.
Dong Hong : 15 % profit in 5 days.

You're rich? You wanna put your money in the bank with an interest of 1 % ?
Let's do it my style.
The Singapore Stock Exchange :)

This is the update for 191108. See if you make this amount per month.

I do it in a day.
Work smart.

7:25 AM

Let's hope i can win playing the DOW JONES Index tonight.

:)

3:38 AM

WINNING.

WHO WANTS TO PLAY STOCK?
HAHAHAHA.
AIMING FOR A DAY WHEN I WIN DURING DAY IN SGX
AND WIN IN THE NIGHT WITH THE US MARKET.
I TOUCH A FOUR DIGIT INCOME ALMOST EVERYDAY.
:)

3:24 AM

AGAINST THE WIND.

Once again i try to make things work,
Facing all the power of society.
Searching all the answers of the life
I will make it on my own.
Was i meant to to fail everytime
that doesnt mean it is my destiny.
Is that all that's left to me,
Confusion and memories.
But now the time has come,
No more running in the dark.
I want much more than this.
I really want it all.

Against the wind we run
To every place under the sun.
We've got so much power inside,
We will never give up.
Against the wind we go,
Towards the all new shore.
Together we'll forget the sorrow,
Forever it is gone.

9:03 AM

The rude one is only one of many
who populate my inner committee,
an unruly group of stubborn complexes
who try to run my life.
My vigilant effort to tame these insubordinates
is ongoing, endless.
I've wheedled and flattered
and when that didnt work
actually reasoned
with the most recalcitrant members
but it only makes them more determined.

Besides, they have my number.
They've sat too often with my therapist,
wrangling their collective hands in commiseration,
clucking sympathetically,
when all along they were gathering ammunition.
Now they are doling out assignments -
I can hear the papers shuffling -
and what's more,
calling in new candidates from the streets.

12:58 AM

YES I PASSED MY FINAL THEORY.
TP NEXT :)

Dad i'll make it even if you dont pay my car downpayment by half or anything or whatsoever. I dont care anymore. I dont need to depend on you. And i dont want to. You are fucking making me answer to you because you think before you get a car for me you can use it to threaten me. You're wrong. Nothing in the world can stop me from what I'm doing. ( Unless you talk sense into me ). I will support myself and not even depend anything on you too. I wont dig anything up and ponder over whether what i did was morally upright or whatever. I wlll fucking do it on my own.

BMW 335i, 100k, House, Millionaire.
25 , 23, 28, 35

1:44 AM

THE DOW JONES RESISTANCE HAS BROKEN !!
0200 hours, 141108

Before today, the Dow Jones (DJ) had a very strong resistance at 8147, today, now , (singapore time 0158) it broke the resistance and flew all the way crashing down. Resistance levels work like this : They act as a support or a max / min level that the stock can reach. If is just another psychological barrier that everyone in the world has placed their hopes on. Once this forefront is broken, what happens normally when the resistance is breached the price of the certain stock will shoot up, or crash down like no one's business.

Given the recent global econ fucking nomic crisis, we all know how many people have been losing money. I belonged to this group of people too this evening , when i placed a short order on DJ and dozed off in lalaland. When i awoke i was disappointed to not only see a non-profit, i saw losses of 2000 SGD that slapped me in my sleepy demeanour.

Now, a couple of hours later, i look at my brokerage software again, and decided to go into the market one more time , as this time the index was nearing 8147, so i shorted it. And i waited and went around eating , surfing net, looking at charts , bla bla. So , from a negative amount of 2000+ SGD, within 5 minutes it all rocketed up to 1798 SGD all within 10 minutes i calculated the profits to be within 4 grand. ALL WIHTIN 10 MINUTES !

DAMN. But i was greedy. Thought could win more.
Now winning 566 only.
SOB.

Shortie :

10:03 AM

Morning, it's 730 am and i'm preparing for school.

Yay, i earned 5.5k SGD when i was asleep. Playing with the US markets now. I shorted the Dow Jones Index. Have already made quite a pile from indices alone. The Singapore stocks have started to tumble yesterday. I dunno if you can see the pic uploaded man, but just try your luck :)

Time To Whack The Market.

3:39 PM

FUCK YOU DAD.
HE THREATENS TO NOT BUY ME A CAR.
I WAS LIKE , HAHAHAHA, DONT BUY DONT BUY LOR.

HE THREATENS HE WILL DELAY THE PURCHASE OF MY CAR IF I STILL COME HOME LATE EVERYDAY. HE COMPLAINS THAT THE HOUSE RULE IS HOUSE RULE AND NO MATTER WHAT I MUST BE HOME BEFORE 12, IRREGARDLESS OF WHETHER THE NEXT DAY HAS CLASS OR NOT.

IM FUCKING 21 TURNING 22, THEY PUT THIS FUCK SHIT CURFEW ON MY HEAD LIKE IM 14. THEY DEDUCE THAT NO MATTER HOW OLD I WILL BE OR WHO I AM OUT WITH OR WHERE I AM I WILL NOT BE A DELINQUENT IF I DONT GO HOME BEFORE 12. FOR ALL THOSE THAT KNOW ME, YOU ALL KNOW HOW MUCH MU LIFESTYLE HAS CHANGED SINCE I STARTED SCHOOL. ALL MY FRIENDS CAN SEE IT. SO MANY PEOPLE KNOW IT. BUT ATLAS THE PEOPLE WHO ARE SUPPOSED TO KNOW ME BEST APPARENTLY KNOW NUTS ABOUT ME. THEY DONT UNDERSTAND ME. THEY HAVE THEIR OWN THINKING WHICH ALWAYS PORTRAYS THEM AS PERFECT AND I AM THE BLACK SHEEP OF THE FAMILY. THEY PIN SO MUCH HOPES ON ME. BUT THEY NEVER THOUGHT OF MY FEELINGS.

BUT THANKS TO MY PARENTS , THAT IS WHY I STAND SO STRONG TODAY. I WANNA BE INDEPENDENT. I WONT GO DOWN. AND THIS IS FOR MYSELF. NOT FOR MY MOM OR DAD. I WILL TREAT MY KIDS WITH RESPECT AND DIGNITY, AND WILL ONLY ACT ACCORDING TO AN AMERICAN PARENT. ALONG THE COURSE TO FIND MY DESTINATION, IT WILL BE A JOURNEY WHERE I WILL BE SPIT, SCORNED AND DESPISED. AND THIS IS WHERE MY STRENGTH WILL FORM..

DAD, I DONT NEED ANY CENT OF YOURS TO BUY MY OWN CAR. SO FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE.
FUCK YOU DAD.

6:45 AM

It's 1 am now, and im rattering dota at home while i shorted the Dow Jones Industrial Index of Ameria. I dont think i can sleep tonight. im earning about 4k just sitting on ma chair and drinking my martell. I drink at home, rather, i love drinking. Screening the numbers and flickering and charts flashing across my eyes, i project myself into the future to see what would it feel like to earn 4k everyday. Neither do i endorse the fact that 4k is alot, 4k / day is ok ok to me only, but 4k is quite an attractive amount PER MONTH for most people. I'm a greedy person. And money will never be enough. I was aiming returns of 10k EVERY DAY once i have diversified my portfolio.

Was looking into
1) Land Banking
2) Crude Oil Investments
3) Online Casino Investments
4) Pub Businesses
5) Own Coaching / Speaking / Training centre
6) Stock Futures
7) US Options

and any diversifications that may help me diversify my portfolio. $100,000 aint so far away now. Next target , SGD 1,000,000. And i give myself 8 years. So, by the end of my 30th birthday, i hope my aspiration will not fail me. :)

Adrenaline pumping through my balls now. Every cell in my body is energetic, and i see a future me driving a BMW, with my wife and kids, living in a condo near the sea. I will give them the best life possible. I will shower them with care and concern and bring my kids up with the correct mindset that most Singaporean parents dont educate the latter in the correct way.

I'm sidetracking. I'm gonna grab a cigarette and another shot before coming back to see how much the US market paid me to smoke that cancer stick and liver-causing-agent.

TATA.
HAPPY FUCKING 21ST BDAY AMANDA BESTIE :)

9:00 AM

WOW.

i earned 1400 last night when i was asleep. That is in fact more than what people earn per month. That's why i say work smart. Dont work your ass off just to see someone do it in an easier way.

OFF TO FUCKIN SCHOOL.

3:38 PM

THANK YOU ZHI HAO.

He said something today that really brightened up my day. he said i should even be studying or continuing my studies cause he knows im larger than that piece of paper I'll get at the end of the 3 years for my degree. He said if i go outside and now and chiong, i do not even need a cert to earn alot of money. Many successful people dont even have an O levels cert. Now in the new age society, what makes a succeesful person is one that has all the life skills , willingness to learn , and ability to adapt and change to the different surroundings that enable him to reach greater heights without difficulty. Nor do i deny that a cert is viable in Singapore , I beg to differ.

Scholars are just people with lots of money that can be thrown at tutors to give them the best results in the world. The smart people are the ones that make full use of their time and money to get their good acedeic grades. Scholars are kids that are so acedemically well taught that on paper they are just so plain fucking good. BUT. If you throw them on to the street with just five dollars and a straw mat, we will see how long they can survive in the Fish-Eat-Fish world. The society requires of us to apply these skills, not to just score fucking distinctions in the papers and strutting around with a first class honours and snapping photographs with a bright snile in your life.

How much would a scholar wanna earn ? 5 k per month ? Work for 30 years and then retire on a pension, hoping it'll last you to your last breadth ? Or would one wanna turn into a person that reaches financial freedom before 40 and retire when some other's are going through their mid life crisis at 45 ?

At what im earning now i think i might be on par with the lectureres at SIM, my lectureres dont toucha 5 digit income a month. They have MBAs in some field; some double degrees, others with tonnes of experience in reputable companies. And i, as a student, am almost nearing a 5 digit income every month. And i look at myself. IM A FUCKING UNDERGRADUATE STUDENT AT 21. Not to put anyone down, but if you too wanna make a difference in your life, start now. Do not procrastinate. Learn. Be child-like. Be curious. Talk to me , I'll bring you out to see the outside financial world where money flows freely.

This is a pic of me just to de-stress in case anyone complains i'm too serious.
ENJOY :

9:10 AM

THE POSSIBLE INPOSSIBILITIES.

As i stay here now and journal tis entry, im looking at my profits from Nasdaq 100 and US Dow Jones Industrial Index. It's 1am in the morning, and i would like to see how much i an make too when i sleep. There was a day when i did won 1k in one night when i was sleeping. Who says we cant make money when we sleep? Not MLM or some other bullshit thing, although some MLMs do provide uber beneficial teachings that brainwash your thinkings.

This is me in my Neuro Linguistic Programming mentoring session.
Dig the confidence.

Now i play alot too. What are the chances of you succeeding in whatever endeavour you embark on ? What are the possibilities that you encounter obstacles on your way to where you want to be ? What are the statistics that you wont be discouraged along the way ? Now , decide for now what you want in life, make a pact right as of this monent to makea difference in your life . DO NOT BE ANY ORDINARY person. Be different in a way people look up to you in any some certain field of interest.

There are NO FAILURES IN LIFE. ONLY FEEDBACK. Failure aint no result, it is just a feedback that you have not been using the right way to go about achieving your goal. So, jut have a goal in mind, work towards it, and even if you fail, slowly alter your way so one day you will succeed in gettin what you want. Be it long term or long term , a person in life without goals is like a boat in the sea without a sail. Without direction. Without hope. So find your bearing now. And stick to it. Never give up. Never say die. Never fail trying.

BE STRONG.
:)

8:59 AM

OH YES. MARKET IS CRASHING JUST AS I EXPECTED.
It's just a day after the US elections as OBAMA reigned victorius over John McCain. As expected, the stocks did drop the day after his party was short lived. Stocks are dropping. The recession will most probably kick in. LET'S WIN MONEY WHEN THE MARKET IS CRASHING !

I WANNA BE A FULL TIME TRADER.
SLOG SO MUCH FOR WHAT.
JUST TRADE LIKE ME.
5 DIGIT INCOME PER MONTH AINT A PROBLEM.

WORK SMART.
I EARN MORE THAN MY LECTURERS.

8:55 AM

It's not a matter of whether i make it or not. It's a matter of when, and how big. I push myself very hard, even harder than how much my mind can handle, but that's what brought me to where i am today. And i will never stop. You'll see the passion in my eyes when i walk before i meet you and greet you with a fucking warm smile with a "YO" or "HAY". So, walk fast, lift your head, with a fire in your eyes no liquid nitrogen can freeze. And let nothing stop you in your way of success.

We are special because of our imperfections. And are unique in a way reframed any optimist might deem we are. So reflect, and never stop reducing the mistakes you make in your everyday life.Be someone people look up to, never forgetting your rooted values where you belong to.

Achieve.

8:05 AM

OMG.

IM SUCH A NON-DELINQUENT.
I SLEEP AT 12,
I WAKE AT 730,
I SCHOOL AT 830,
I HOME AT 6,
I STUDY AT 8,
I GAME AT 10,
I SLEEP AT 12.

I DONT BELIEVE IM DOING THIS.
HAHAHAHA.

WATCH ME ON A FRIDAY NIGHT.
:)

7:01 AM

To all,
i think the photo below truly sucks.
lol. reflects the cock side of me.
But, alas.

The market went up today, springing up since its never ending descent since the Lehman Brothers, Meryill Lynch, Freddie Mae, Fanni Mac, AIG, and the many many bank's collapses or margin calls. The rally rooted from the news that japan was gonna further cut its interest rate again to ease the financial crisis, one not seen since the Great Depression since the 1930s.

Brace yourselves. The recession aint over yet. The market is still weak. We know it is at a bottom but we never know when it is THE BOTTOM. So, spend less, smoke less, drink less, cab less, and buy less labels ( all i think which refer to me ).

HAVE A NICE WEEK AHEAD !

Those were the days in Alaska, America.

6:45 AM

Am pondering, maybe one day i'll be sellin all my label stuff away. Was calculating, they all add up to almost 15 - 20 k of money. And if i could , why not use that money to go multiply and diversify my portfolio ? Was considering land banking and crude oil investment to diversify my portfolio. And when i looked back, i saw the amount of money i threw to LV, Gucci, Mont Blanc, Burberry, Nokia 8800 and many others more. I came to know people will know me for what i possess : all the branded stuff. But i reconsider and realise that that is not what i want.

I just wanna be normal.

I want people to notice me for who i am, not i what i posses. The SUBSTANCE of anything is the inner quality of it, not how good it looks or how presentable or even how expensive it is. What's most inportant is what lies within.

Still not sure,
Give me some time.
Let's just drink.
The real shit.

2:04 AM

Never Fading.
Never Ending.
Never Giving Up.

Till i get what i want.

1:59 AM